Belief

God exists for those who believe in Him;

Angels exist for those who appreciate them ♥

memory

I felt so relax chilling in restaurant, listening to the songs that you like;

blogging with a drink in my hand

I miss you, I seriously do :)

Your voices and your jokes;

i am so gonna miss your kisses and your tough body

Appreciate every effort that you've made

If you're to ask me whether I am treating others like how I treated you;

my answer will be an absolute NO

Not everyone deserve me treating them with full heart

If you're to ask me whether I like or love you;

I would say: I like you and I love you

You have so many good qualities

and I love spending my quality time with you

I am not expecting to be anyone for you;

but to merely appreciate you at this moment

we started from nothing; and sadly to say we're not going to get anything out from here

The world is changing in a fast pace; same goes to the people that trying to survive;

but the only thing that will remain the same - is the memory I store in my heart

Forgotten the bad one and filtered the good one to keep

No one will take that away from me; reality can merely change nothing

Memory, the precious assets I hold it tightly with me

the HIM and the HIM

I like both of you, I seriously do.. :)

Neither one is my type; but the mixture of both of you make a perfect one.

I am so happy to be surrounded by both of you

I felt so comfortable with your gentleman;

and I felt safe under your protection

Can we keep this friendship forever?

I promise I will cherish and treasure every moment that I've spent with you guys

We're so gonna rock the time we been together :D

what the heck

urghh.. My roommate complaint me snoring in my sleep after I started working!

My Goodness! Can't believe that I SNORE!!!!!!!!!!!

was so shocked by the fact,

pity her, caz I begged her so badly to help me check out what the reasons that cause me snore

Is my sleeping pose wrong? Or it was cause by my double layered pillow?

Or am I just too tired..?

Sometimes when I snore, she was half way sleep without her spec on,

she is nearly blind without spec. hence, not much chance for her to observe me sleeping

Sometimes she is just not paying attention to my sleeping pose,

then it will be hard for her to tell me the reason why i snore

Ah! Damn! How i wish she can slap me whenever i start snoring;

so that next time my body will stop 'making noise'!

what the heck..what the heck is going on?!

I don't like this.. ='(

Chap 4:Professionalism

I just had my heart to heart talk with one of my colleague.

I am so thankful for her concern and opened her heart to share her feeling with me.

2 days before I had one horrible fight with my supervisor. I talked less in work and even not talking to him at all. And after that I felt horrible for treating him like that; for not being considerate. He is my supervisor and there is so many stuffs for him to take care of. He is in between the boss and the staffs. He just can't please everyone by every decision he made; he is too busy to take care of whatever he said just to ensure no one will get hurts.

Seem like it's not just me having the problem at work; in fact, my problem is really a minor one. During these days, I found out that the new staffs, senior staffs, supervisor and even boss are having different problems at the same time. Newbie are struggling to survive in the work, showing their effort to learn, compete with one another and etc. And the senior one are striving to balance their work and study; and how to get recognition by the upper management. And part timers are really struggling a lot in building the relationship with the other colleagues.

Yesterday, my boss called me into her office and asked for some feedback after working there for about a month. I told her frankly what i felt. "So, do you feel that you're not comfortable working with the supervisor"? She asked. "No." I said. "I do not have any problem with him, instead, I salute on him. He really surprised me with his toughness and determination; and I bare he been through a lot".

I apologize. For whatever that he thinks I need to apologize for.

I should be gratitude. I am getting higher pay than other colleagues. I am a Chinese and i have so many potential.

I should not just busying emo myself and stop all the opportunity. Life should be moving on.

I guess I am used to the routine work and have been choosing to stay in my comfort zone,

Until someone came into my life, pulling me out from my comfort zone and turn my life upside down;

Someone had just mess up my life, BUT I can't give them a bite.

Caz I have grown mature now,

I always thought life is all about choices, especially when we're young;

but actually it is not, caz we're not living our life by our own.

There is so much more for me to learn. And I am gratitude for the opportunity.

Just like a child, I need to feel safe with sufficient guidance and I hope I will be given enough space to grow.

The HIM and the HER

Dear Him,

It was so sweet sharing an umbrella with you walking under the drizzling rainy day.

And I was so surprise with all the small little moments that we used to share things together.. Everything comes so naturally and coincidently. I felt so comfortable hanging out with you. Very much appreciated the gentlemen side of you and every effort you take to make me feel better :)

I can see that you're a good guy and you will definitely get better in the future. Keeps all the effort going, I believe you can discover your true self in next to no time.

Dear Her,

I thanked God for sending such an angel to my life, that cheers me up when i am down;

talk to me when i feel lonely; disturb me when i need to concentrate on my study;

and made me laugh like mad woman on street.

You are so cute, you are so nice; and most importantly, we are so in sync together!

Although i was the one that always take care of you but i am thankful for your high tolerance.

I am not good in tolerating people and you done a very good job tolerating me and made me realize that I should learn this good quality from you.

There is so much more for me to learn from you.

Sharing an umbrella with you was funny and not sweet at all!

I remembered I manja you to share your small little winnie pooh umbrella with me.

But you almost pissed me off by keep hitting my head with your umbrella.

Eventually, I straight away grab and ran away with your umbrella and you complained right to my ear: "I've already tried my best adjusting the umbrella to your height but guess you're just too high for me! And don't you dare to forget this is my umbrella"!

HAHAHAH! Comparing the time I shared umbrella with the him and the her. It was totally different yet funny scene! Both of you have just cheered up my day! I heart both of you ♥

give myself a hug, give my heart a kiss;

saying: tough girl, you will be alright

Dear D,

The 1st time I saw you was when you have been introduced by our boss right after my interview session. Wow! So handsome! That was my 1st impression for you :)

BUT now you're no longer that handsome for me. Caz I still prefer you with your long stylish hair.

Remembered there's one time you talked to us during work, I was like: My Goodness! If you know that you're that handsome can you please don't go around turning girl crazy? (Although you did nothing at that time but I was just right at the perfect angle to see the handsome side of you)

BUT now I don't think you're that special anymore. Caz I don't think that you've utilize ur physical appearance at the right place.

I think it's an advantage to work with handsome guy. I kind of like it to be your colleague, frankly speaking :D

You're doing quite a good job discovering my weaknesses. Stubborn, overconfident, noisy, etc.. Those are the things that my mum and sis keep reminding me all the times. I am quite glad that you're the 3rd one in my life to realize that and figured your own ways to deal with me. But some of it I couldn't agree. I have my points of doing it. And it's so sad that I can't explain it to you...

Yes, I am quite stubborn at times (okay la. i stubborn all the time). I admitted this as my weakness; but the reason why I do not change this misbehavior is because i think it's my strength too. I have my own set of principle. I just couldn't take it when people came into my life and mess up everything. I have my way of thinking and doing things.

You asked me to listen to people at all time instead of talking non stop. Yes, i know i have a lot of opinions to be spoken. But I do listen, to my own heart as well as others. I always listen to others' problems and try my very best to help them. Do you ever realize that?

You said that I am overconfident, that is why you always give bad comments or not agree with my ways of doing works just to ensure i won't fly too high.

You're totally wrong about me overconfident with myself. Do you ever see how scare i am even to the small little stuff? Do you know how long it takes for me to get over something threatened and let go something that is not that pleasant?

Did you know how long it takes for me to practice for the class over and over again? Did you know how much efforts i putted to make sure nothing goes wrong?

You don't know and you never know. Caz i am not showing it to you. I don't like myself to show my weakness to others; i felt stupid. What you see is me doing quite good and very confident with my own performance.

Yes, I personally quite happy with the result. The 1st class i did by my own was indeed better than what i expected. But it's so hurt to receive almost ALL the negative comments from you.

Is there really no other way than to attack me just to ensure i won't get overconfident with myself? My heart was broken...

And you said 90% of me is childish; Only 10% that mature. I am not so sure whether you meant it. But i am who i am. If I did something wrong. Please kindly give me some space to grow.

Remembered that time i asked you: Do you think i am noisy? No. you replied in absolute manner. "You're just talkative". I was quite happy that time; at least you're not annoyed by me. I wish the adjective of talkative will not change to noisy. Then i am contented.

And one last thing that bothered me the most. You said I stalked you and other colleagues. Evidence, please? Some of the things were really told by other colleagues.

I am curious, that's why I asked, and that's why they tell.

And some of the things are really really destined. Guy Laroche and some other things..

I am Sagittarius and you're Gemini. We are going parallel and infinite; no intersection.