the wall she builds came tumbling down

There was once,

a girl who is well protected and let chasing for whatever she wants in life

She dares to dream,

and have her life planned accordingly

Her eyes sparked with hopes,

Her head overloaded with hell lots of crazy ideas.

She just can’t wait,

To start the life that she wanted.

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Just when she decided to step out from her comfort zone.

The world out there, doesn’t seem the same as she expected

Walking through the journey called life; it wasn’t easy.

She brings no weapon to attack; wears no armor to defense

She was true to people;

but some regards her as untrue     

She was excited and curious;

but then people think that she is overly excited and knowing too much and unnecessary

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She then learns that, maybe, she should get a little bit humble and matures;

 By trying to talk less and let others speak instead

But then people come questioning and whispering in doubts:

 “Are you trying to hide something by not telling?” “That is not good, you should have known”

When the opposite effect has taken it’s place;

she realized that she just can’t please anyone, including herself

The wall of “attitude” that she has build came tumbling down

Yet there is nothing much can be done

And there goes, another construction has begun

Broken pieces, i am slowly picking 'em up

During my University time,

I am blessed that i am being exposed enough, to determine what my career path would be like

As I always think that I am good in teaching and working with children will lead me to a carefree and  happiness life

I taught I would be teaching, for the rest of my life

But, I have never taught that:

I've given up something that I passionate about, so easily

It was just few months after I graduated;

As planned, I started off my working life with few job attempts in Early Childhood field

Although the working life was carefree and happy;

However, other than two of the captioned above, a fresh graduate with big dream

can merely survive in the particular field

By accepting the truth that: 'being involved in Early Childhood basically can't guarantee you a promising future'

I left Early Childhood with heavy heart

My dream was broken,

and I am totally clueless in term of resetting my career pathway

For all this while, I have been, and only think that:

I will teach for the rest of my life (that's it)

I have never taught of the day,

where teaching, is no longer in my career list

At the same time,

I had an offer from a bank

Without a second taught,

I accept the job offer

Transition from Early Childhood to Bank Corporation was though

In fact, it has been really really tough on me

With zero banking experiences and no Finance / Business background

I am drown in the sea with boring figures, annoying charges, and some business operation things that I have no idea about 

At first, I taught I have made my decision in rush,

which causes me self blame a lot about making such a bad decision dedicating myself to serve for a bank

But every time after I have been sent for a training or meeting;

I am being inspired.

After a very long time, I can finally find back the time where my eyes spark with hopes

I am also grateful to find out that, 

I, actually appreciate all the opportunities given / granted by my boss

Although things changed, unexpectedly.

And I know that a broken heart, cannot return to it's original shape.

But as long as I am granted with the ability to live

I will strive for the best in everything that I do 

Now that I've learned: nothing is guarantee.

Even for the things that I assumed or promised myself that I will be achieving it in no time

So, let's just not expect the same from others 

 things changed, unexpectedly, 

and what we can do is, accept it with a full heart and think of the possible ways

The broken pieces of my (previous) dream,

I am now, slowly picking 'em up