It was my ever 1st time got cheated in a lame way, the lamest reason from the stupidest dumb!
"That's just too bad" The only valid reason she could give after spending my RM1500 for granted! And her arrogant face still vividly flashing in mind from time to time. If i could give her a slap, i will take anything to do it. seriously..
Ho Swee Kim! You're a law student yet you do not apply any single law into the real life!
Only now i know why you need to repeat your 1st year of degree again, because YOU HAVE NO LOGIC!
I couldn't get myself over from my mistakes and i am so so so depressed on it. I am so so so so frustrated with her and i was so so so upset with myself of being so stupid to be fooled by the stupidest girl in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!
It was an unexpected accident and whatever i can blame is of my bad luck, that's what everyone beside me has said.
"You can't do anything, it's a lesson for a good people like you". My friend said that to me. This has challenge my life motto. I thought it would be alright if i treat people with good intention; at least they will treat me as how i treated them. Now that it was proven wrong, and it's time for me to reflect and re-set my life motto; at least to eliminate this one.
"Why don't you try doing something instead of blaming yourselves?" I bet you will ask me with this question.
I have done whatever i can. I visited a counseling session and i have spent few months of my life asking for professional advices.
I have got all the procedure prepared and support from my lawyer-to-be friend (thank you Vincent for helping). "Wow, it was so complicated but I am sure you can get back your money." He assured me after he investigating on my case.
But after struggling for some times i decided not to lodge a report and sue her in a court.
First, is mainly because of my parents. They were so frustrated at first but then they asked me to let go. For them 1500 is nothing if comparing to my happiness and if it affect my studies then it will be not worth even i've asked back the money.
Second, I attended counseling for that (kindly noted that i am not suffering from any psychological disturbance for that; just that i am using my advantage being a psychology student to attend counseling for free). I shared my problems with the counselor and he asked me few questions in order to help me explore more deeply on the issue.
HIM: "So what you hope to get if you've ask back your money?"
ME: " I am not struggling with the money; just that i need justice, to prove that there is no wrong for good people".
HIM: "So what will you feel after striving for justice?"
ME: "At least I won't feel bad of what i have done, i still want to believe in myself."
HIM: " So even after you get the justice; aside feeling relief then what will you feel?"
ME: "... ..." (couldn't answer)
HIM: "Okay, let's change it this way, so what you feel when you face with this problem until you need to send her to court?"
ME: "That's my rights and she cheated my money in an illegal way!"
HIM: "So how you feel?"
ME: "I feel frustrated and upset"
HIM: "How about telling me about what you have felt on your own?"
ME: "... ..." (couldn't answer again)
He hang there waited for me to answer..
"I felt stupid..." Finally I said it with tears rolling in my eyes.
HIM:"Okay, let's talk about your family, so you have 5 siblings including you." "Do you mind to share some of you childhood memories?"
I was like what the heck? You dig the problems so deep until i even not aware of it then you leave me hang there with more problems.
Now i have gotten another stupid lesson because of the stupid thing.
"It's enough" I think God try to send me this message that is why i chose to let it go.
If justice cannot punish you; i will let the Karma do.
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