20, 30, 40

"At the age of 20, we don't care what the world thinks of us; 
at 30, we worry about what it is thinking of us; 
at 40, we discover that it wasn't thinking of us at all."

Anonymous

A friend of mine had this kind of idea where he listed down 21 things to remember to celebrate his 21st birthday.

I used to have similar thought to make my 21st a memorable one; but had it in different way, that is to try out 21 different ways of celebration with my friend. 

While we are still celebrating and counting. 

I think it would also be good to list down some significant life lessons

1. Live, Learn, Love

Have the ability and flexibility to adapt and survive in each situation, learn from the life lesson, get wisdom and start giving love to those who needs

Giving is blessing, don't stop giving until you lose the ability to do so

2. Routine is a big thing, keep it healthy

Routine is something that we spend more than half of our time doing, and it's where achievement and success happens

Set a desirable outcome, have an objective and work for it

3. Enjoyment is another big thing, KISS it

It is something that regards as fun and inspiring, and it's always been eagerly looking and waiting for

Overdo will only lead to perversion. Balance it, then we can find contentment

* KISS = keep it short and sweet

4. YOU and the problem of YOUR life

No one has the responsibility to take care of our feeling and emotions all the time; not even our parents or life partner

Always take a good care of ourselves and being responsible for our own problems

5. If you're afraid of losing, which means there is still something for you to lose

If something threaten makes us having no reasons to move on, then we will stuck at the miserable situation, forever

Losing something important? Make sure we get it back next time. Trust me, Karma did works

6.   Stubborn and determination are both different thing

Stubborn is to blindly follow something that we think we like regardless of what is right or wrong

Determination is to be very clear of our objective so that we can work hard to reach the desirable outcome

Let go when we have to; but never give up hope

7. Accept everything that happens

A success that happens: Cherish the glory moment, accept compliment from others humbly and thanks God for the blessing;

A failure that happens: Face it, accept the reality and learn from the lesson without pointing the blame on anyone

Anything happens for a reason. A success person will only see it as an opportunity

8. Don't depends your life on others

No one is responsible for our life except our own. If we are not taking care of ourselves then no one will

Stop taking for granted and stop fooling ourselves that someone can do everything for us

Sharing a world with others, we can help each other but not to fully rely on anyone

9. Be clear of your objective and purpose of doing things

Human is born greedy, not satisfy with life and always complaining

Always be clear with the objective and purpose of doing something

So that we can learn how to take things easily

10. Have expectation in yourself. Rate your own performance; not base on the rating from theirs'

We know who we are and what our level is; others can't be bothered to know how much we have been through

Ratings from them can somehow be biased according to their own preferences

Know ourselves, learn from the lesson and move forward

11. if it's your', it will be yours'

Want something? Work for it. Not able to get it? Then forget it

The result isn't important, neither the process

It is the lesson for us to figure out which one suits us more and how to handle it when the next time comes

12. Have no excuse for yourself and always forgive others

Perfection is not to give any excuse for the mistake we did; but to give any reason for others' mistake

Their life is theirs, understand the differences and forgive as we could; our life is us, only us knowing how to bring the best out of ourselves

13. Information is selective, judgment is biased

We can't stop people from saying what they want to say; but we can filter and select the important and correct message they try to deliver

Same goes to people in getting what we try to tell. It is a human nature to select what is considered important to them

14. If we are to get angry, there should be a reason behind it. And the reason, should always be acceptable by others

Misunderstanding happens between two or more parties,
the one that get angry, pissed, or cry doesn't mean they are the only victim

A quarrel can only be stop when both parties reach their consensus

15. Stop the drama, goes with flows

Life is full with ups and downs; try not to overreact on success or failure,

because we will either be labeled as someone that showing off or we're just another pessimist

People prefer laughing at our failure than to celebrate our success. So why let them having the chance to do that on us?

16.  Mistake happens once, may due to the external reason; mistake repeated, it is the internal thing that should be changed

Something undesirable or unexpected happen, it may due to the external reason such as luck, people or situation influences

But once the same one keep repeated, it may be something inside us that having the problem

Figure it out, and work for it

17. Don't enforce your value on others. No one should have the same as yours

People like to influence or change others to have the same mindset as theirs,

and they always judge others based on their preferences

Don't simply judge and expect anyone to change for you. It ain't fair

18. Be nice and sincere to people doesn't mean we have to treat them with full heart. Be clear of the safe boundaries

Regardless how we are excited over things or passion towards people

Everyone has their safe boundaries and comfort zone of interacting with strangers or normal friends

Try not to cross the line, live in harmony

19. Respect, is the least we can give towards a broken relationship

If something has already reach a stage where nothing can be fixed

aside the effort to eliminate any misunderstanding

respect the decision by other party is also a kind of self respect

20. Everyone is beautiful and unique in their own ways

Everyone is unique. We all come in a full set

If you know someone well enough, their weakness can somehow be balanced by their strength

See the beauty in it and appreciate the differences, we will find the world as cute and beautiful as it is

21. Everyone's life is destined. It's just how you make the best out of it

We all come in a full set, and our faith is somehow destined

No use to work over the things that are not belong to us

Discover our strength and go with the flow. Life will be easier 

妈妈的女儿

陈家的二小姐；

总是学不会怎么好好地走路；

向往着天空，仰慕着大海；

自由，是她唯一所追求的

说话很直，没有恶意；

性格强悍，基本上没人管得了

受不了唠叨；捱不了责骂

她只会跟你硬碰硬

她，是个典型的射手座

自小爱打扮，

裙子，花朵，蝴蝶结都是她的挚爱

生活少不了午休和下午茶；

这是她所谓的幸福

吃不了苦，承受不了压力；

生活没打算过的太辛苦

但终究败给了“年少轻狂”;

她..幻想着“美好”

说决定了给自己一个机会尝试一下外面的世界；

旁人的话没什么听进去；没准备什么就出发了

到了外面的世界，

尝试了一个人的生活

遇到了委屈没太敢诉苦；

深怕会被拖回原来的世界

跌跌撞撞，体验了真正的可悲；

才发现家人的可贵

敲破了头好不容易住进上流的社会；

深信墨水多的人总会比较高尚

到了最后才发现自己只住在美丽的空壳里；

勾心斗角设法活过每一天

累了才发现自己已失去了该有的快乐

挣扎了很久才决定放下该死的执着；

逃出了华丽的圈套

从此不想为了该死的名利牺牲了快乐

这样的自己笨死了

也从此不敢放话说什么：自己决定的路没人可阻挡；

因为这样的自己太任性，不曾顾虑他人的感受

但最终的她还是选择了相信，

相信她可以在这社会上找到属于自己的位子

怀着那颗赤子之心；虽然很不被讨好

坚持着自己的信念；不想被谁给影响

愿意再赌上这一次，

赌注是青春还有未来

该死的委屈和眼泪又再次淋湿了枕头

但此时的她听见了妈妈的叮咛，

说着：“挨不下去了就回来吧”

生活，其实不需要过得那么苦

她，就是妈妈的那个女儿

what the heck

urghh.. My roommate complaint me snoring in my sleep after I started working!

My Goodness! Can't believe that I SNORE!!!!!!!!!!!

was so shocked by the fact,

pity her, caz I begged her so badly to help me check out what the reasons that cause me snore

Is my sleeping pose wrong? Or it was cause by my double layered pillow?

Or am I just too tired..?

Sometimes when I snore, she was half way sleep without her spec on,

she is nearly blind without spec. hence, not much chance for her to observe me sleeping

Sometimes she is just not paying attention to my sleeping pose,

then it will be hard for her to tell me the reason why i snore

Ah! Damn! How i wish she can slap me whenever i start snoring;

so that next time my body will stop 'making noise'!

what the heck..what the heck is going on?!

I don't like this.. ='(

work with you; work for you

You're not superior; it's just me trying to be humble

You did not win; it's just me try not to be calculative

Sound convincing doesn't mean you're correct;

it's just me knowing what you say and always take your suggestion into consideration

sometime I might have my point;

just that I am not that harsh on you to force you accept what I've suggested

Don't try to become dominant when I am trying hard to understand you

Don't try to take it for granted when I am a little demanding on what can I contribute

I am sad enough to accept the fact that I am not capable in handling thing by my own;

but at the same tine I am glad that God has sent me such a good partner like you to assist me reaching the target

I want to work with you; not work for you

who is actually the innocent one?

Is afraid of animal. 

If you do not put the cat into that bloody cage;

I rather lock myself in the cage, as long as it can't reach me..

 Suspect found!! 

My housemate brought this kitten back without advance notice and permission from other housemates!

It caused inconvenient for us, and a lot of headache for me..

Okay, you might think it's fairly cruel to point all the blame on an innocent kitten like this;

but you would never have thought of any story behind it

It was actually a present from an admire of my housemate's boyfriend!

because the bf caught guilty to receive such a 'lovely' present from girls other than his gf

therefore, he accepted the gift and give it to her gf (smart huh?)

At first, my housemate (aka the boy's gf) knows nothing about the truth;

she received the gift with joys thinking that her boyfriend has just did the most romantic thing ever on her.

she was pleased, and bought a lot of stuffs for the cat: shelter, food and etc

One beautiful morning, I was studying in the living room and the door bell rings

I opened the door and a mature malay auntie yelled at me: "where's the cat?! where's the cat?"

I was quite shocked by the sudden visit (fyi, our condo does not allow pet in the house, unless we have gain special permission from the authority beforehand)

of course, to protect the house from getting trouble

I denied the fact that we had a kitten at the house and tried to ask the auntie who is she actually looking for;

she straight away made call in front of me and said, "is XXX at home"? 

my Goodness! that was exactly my housemate's name

I said to her that my housemate was not at home, she has gone for class, 

then only the auntie left our place without having the chance to meet my housemate and get back her kitty;

half an hour after, my housemate walked out from her room with her messy hair

"you were at home all this while"? "didn't you hear someone yelling at our doorstep this morning"?!

my goodness! she was actually at home and she do nothing but to let me handle all this shits of her by my own!

but maybe she has a deep sleep so she couldn't hear anything from outside. I forgive her

After awhile, she has got the triangle relationship figured out, between the admire, her bf and her, and the kitty

she was mad and asked for a broke up

after all, the kitten has returned to the owner..

and after awhile, they made up (STUPID @#$%@!!)

the end

Sport: Basketball Match in Port Dickson

On 27th December I suddenly get a phone calls from friends inviting my friend and I to help out with statistic for international high school basketball tournament in Port Dickson. I was shock and unprepared for that and i got a bloody scold from my mum before i depart.

"What can basketball contribute to your future? she throw me a realistic question frustratingly.

Suddenly that thought provoked to me. "So what's can basketball offer to me?" I can't seem to answer her question and this question has actually bothered me for the next coming days.

After the match has been over. Now i seem to figure out why i love watching basketball match so much, without me being conscious for any valid reason.

1st, actually i love to see guys hanging around with each other. The way they deal with their friends can be just so easy with simply pure fun. I am lack of guy friends and i always has the natural tendency to stick with girl friends more (well, can say most of them are quite sensitive at times and a lot of technique been playing around as to get what they wanted; i might be one of the described; but somehow i guess i am just too tired to deal with these).

I feel so relax and found out that i am emotional involved with every single point gain from my favorite basketball player as well as their team. It was just so nice to shout and cheer for their glory moment. Sometimes i get to meet with some favorite players too and i guess it's rare opportunities ever in my life.

These few days, i am glad that i have the opportunity to watch nice match with few hot guys available. Somehow, i enjoy 'interacting' with them *blush*

• YUK CHAI team from Petaling Jaya

Player no. 8 - Choong Yu Bin

My 1st impression with him was when his 1st match with Woodgrove team. When the opponent team fault him, the cute impression he gave hinting the referee was just so cute! and yes, it attracted me =)

And when we're having buffet in hotel ballroom. I am not sure whether it's him intentionally or accidentally sitting right opposite me, hence, it creates more opportunity for us to interact with each other.

Plus, whenever he is in match, my eyes sight was like 90% starring at him; and his frequent look at me has been caught by me; then we both faster look away shyly. Guess what? I count and report the numbers of time our eyes intercept. Poor my friend, i guess she is annoyed by listening all these rubbish from me. haha

For me, Yu Bin is such a quiet and shy guy. I am kind of like him and i guess (at least i wish) he feel the same too. Although it's such a waste since we have not asking for any further contacts from each other; but i wish him all the best in his future ^.^

• Woodgrove team from Singapore

Player no. 4 - Wong Ye Xu

The 1st time i started to spot him was when i am passing a paper to him. I talked to him for awhile with English and realized he has nice voice with sexy body. The consequent match i am starring at him most of the time. He is kind of fast, furious and impulsive player; but his body size is just perfect especially when his sweat is sticking on his tanned looking skin. My goodness!

Player no. 7 - Pek Jia Rong

Jia Rong is same team with Ye Xu; and he is just right beside Ye Xu when i talking to him. Although i didn't really talk to him but i think i can recognize his physical appearance. Well, i can say he is quite a good leader in the team and he is very clam in leading the team especially in very critical moment. He shout most of the time ordering players in the court; but for me his voice sucks lol. And his body is not as attractive as Ye Xu; but his attitude kind of impressed me.

I know i am being very gatal and nonprofessional for playing dubious with the players. But i guess my heart can just be simply delighted by these. Since there is no harm doing this except the people beside me feel like fainting. But i guess i will still continue if any chance. It's just the way how i enjoy the match and how i please myself =)

So yea, no regrets for this trip and i know how to answer my mum next time when she question me "what can basketball offer".

Basketball gave me a lot of growing experiences and sweet memories. As long as i have the opportunity, i will go for it. There is no logical answer explaining my motivation but simply to please myself.

to be better

PART I:
*written on 3th November 2010*

Promised myself to leave perfection for one good reason - to be better

I spent a year and a half living in places like this 

for me it's not only a PLACE; but a PALACE

I fell in love with it at the first sight,

for the first time I saw it, I have already decided to live my life here

but seeing is actually deceiving; dreaming is only believing

sometimes, perfection is nothing better than just dreaming it

under some unavoidable circumstances,

finally I made my decision to leave

it took up a lot of excuses to convince myself,

that I can find a better life out there

I finally leave, with much pains and unwillingness 

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PART II:

*updated on 1st September 2011*

My life was simpler and happier out there. 

Now that I've know my decision to leave was a right move.

As compare to a heaven without angels; 

I rather stay with angel anywhere outside the heaven

I found my angel

thanks for bringing lucks and much laughter to my life

Cheers! for life

Promised myself to leave perfection for one good reason- to be better

我失恋了

一年多的感情。。一见钟情的好感。。

你曾经曾经地让我为你如此地着迷；让我受尽了委屈都无论如何想留在你怀抱里的执着。。

然而这华丽的圈套我呆不下去了；为了我的前途我选择放弃了那完美的你。。

也许是我太年轻了；太依赖你了

在你怀抱里我经常失去理智；是时候放开你去追寻我要的未来。

你依然是我所向往的那个他；你依然是我人生的目标

我不怕失去你，因为我对你有满分的信心。

谢谢你给过的美好，我拥有过，也珍惜过

我在努力着；相信很快的一天，我会回到你怀抱